Letters from Sea

loveandpugs:

My Dearest Allie,

I couldn’t sleep last night because I know that it’s over between us. I’m not bitter anymore, because I know that what we had was real. And if in some distant place in the future we see each other in our new lives, I’ll smile at you with joy and remember how we spent the summer beneath the trees, learning from each other and growing in love. The best love is the kind that awakens the soul and makes us reach for more, that plants a fire in our hearts and brings peace to our minds, and that’s what you’ve given me. That’s what I hope to give to you forever. I love you. I’ll be seeing you.

-Noah

I think this perfectly describes my feelings for Matthew, and what I’ve been feeling and experiencing quietly by myself for a while.

I wish I could just cut out my heart and mail it to you so that you could see first hand the kind of scars you inflicted on it. However, you deny me, yourself, and your feelings, and nothing you do will ever fill that empty hole inside you as long as you ignore me.

She came to the Senior Art Exhibit tonight and I got to spend the whole time catching up and laughing with her. I’ve missed our friendship so much these past few months and I’m so thankful to have felt that feeling again right before finals. She even gave me a birthday present which was a book called House of Leaves and I only mentioned that book once to her and she remembered how much I wanted it. I probably cried at least 3 times while she was here because of how happy and excited I was. I love her so much. Thank you for being such an amazing and supporting friend! <33 

• Class, class, and more class
• Getting a little overwhelmed but keeping up with work and homework
• Talking to a great guy named Dane (he is 24 and he’s the sweetest guy I have ever talked to)
• My one friend tried to commit suicide and was in the hospital for a few days
• A close friend of my mum’s died today which sort of threw me off and I was very surprised 
• My one friend broke off her engagement
• My other friend just got engaged  
• This has been the happiest I’ve been in a while
• I really just want Saturday to come so that Dane can visit me 

Don’t make me sad
Don’t make me cry
Sometimes love is not enough
And the road gets tough I don’t know why

Keep making me laugh
Lets go get high
The road is long we carry on
Try to have fun in the meantime

Come take a walk on the wild side
Let me kiss you hard in the pouring rain
You like your girls insane

Choose your last words
This is the last time
Because you and I
We were born to die

It’s now my new favorite movie. I loved it so fucking much!