Letters from Sea

By

Me

Why does Matt feel the need to talk about how much he’s glad we are over, and how much he hated being with me, and how great Billy is? If anything that just seems like he’s even more insecure about the whole situation and that he is trying to just cover up all those feelings. I feel bad that Billy has to deal with Matt talking about me all the time. It clearly shows that he’s not over something and he is just projecting the hate he has at him self toward me.

All I’ve tried to do was move on and get over him so what does he expect when that’s what he wanted me to do? I don’t understand his logic at all… 

I’m a very loyal boyfriend and just because I’m overly sexual doesn’t mean that I’m not.

he would never drink but did, who said that if I ever drank or smoked weed that he would dump me no matter how much he loved me, who said that he hated beer and would never drink it but did, who said that he was suffocated by my affection and didn’t want anyone else but went and found someone anyway, to the boy who said that he would never give up on me but then found a reason to, who said that I was special but forgot me, who said that my kisses and body were like home to him but found someone new, who said that he could see us grow old together but left me behind, who said that he would never abuse me like my father did but he ended up hitting me, who said that no matter what he wanted to always be there for me but turned his back, who said that he would support me but then didn’t when it came to photography, to the boy that asked me to marry him but then dumped me three times, to the boy that said he would love me no matter how far away I was but never knew how to love himself.

To you I say that I pity you and feel sorry for you. In the end I hope you can live with yourself.

Score!

• Class, class, and more class
• Getting a little overwhelmed but keeping up with work and homework
• Talking to a great guy named Dane (he is 24 and he’s the sweetest guy I have ever talked to)
• My one friend tried to commit suicide and was in the hospital for a few days
• A close friend of my mum’s died today which sort of threw me off and I was very surprised 
• My one friend broke off her engagement
• My other friend just got engaged  
• This has been the happiest I’ve been in a while
• I really just want Saturday to come so that Dane can visit me 

It’s now my new favorite movie. I loved it so fucking much!

and why does a child have to have some kind of terminal illness in almost all of them…